Oh we made it!
I started birth control in September. The process is one month of birth control, have a period, then start the invitro shots and meds. So with it all finally here, the process REALLY starting, I felt so emotional - tears - aftraid to hope, afraid not to hope, afraid to desire children, afraid to not desire children. I thought that already having Caleb and Alethia would make my emotions more calm, but now that the time was here, so were the emotions. I guess the unknown is just difficult.
But ready or not, the time has come......