a glimpse.......
a glimpse.....
a glimpse.....
A glimpse into something......a view........a perspective......something very real.......it's hard to put my finger on it.......I'm not sure that I have the words......
But I suddenly have a deep knowing in my soul that all I can do is give my heart and my hopes to the Lord, to Jesus. I can't control much in this life or in this world........
But I can surrender my heart and my hope to Jesus that eternity with Him is real. I can't make people understand my perspective, I can't make everyone like and agree with us, I can't make someone give me a job or give us money, I can't make Chris completely healthy, I can't protect my children from every pain and evil thing surrounding them.......I can't do much.......I don't have the control......I didn't design life that way, but every now and then I remember......the sobering reality of life comes to me........and instead of creating fear......
every now and then, it creates SURRENDER
a surrender deep in my soul that admits that I don't have control over more in my life than I care to think.....and so I put my hope.......a flicker of hope......sometimes very faint......sometimes very strong.......
I put a flicker of hope, all that I have, and all that I am, into spending eternity with God, with Jesus. I surrender my desires, my plans, my ideas, my emotions, my fears, my dreams, my self. I surrender it to Him.
And when I do,
I get a glimpse
of PEACE.
THAT is what it is. I can see it now. DEEP PEACE in my being. DEEP PEACE that gives me rest. Rest from worry, rest from planning, rest from "doing".
A peace-filled stillness.
There's nothing like it.
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